We are each responsible for the energy we chose to project.
I have been struggling with articulating a lesson I think that my children need to learn. I am often troubled when I believe their attitude is less than positive. I had occasion lately to give lectures (that sound more like sermons) on the reasons why they should feel privileged, grateful, blessed and happy when they appear to be acting in ways that demonstrate selfishness, impatience and entitlement. I have felt these lectures are less than effective in cutting through to the heart of the matter. I know they are young, and this is a tough life lesson to really get. It often takes age, wisdom and years of experience to understand how good we have it when we feel in the momement that we don't have it so good at all. Then I had an "AHA" moment. I am not always living what I am preaching.
I spend a great deal of time and energy trying to control my environment. I have a busy, noisy, chaotic household of four boys and the busy life that accompanies them. I set schedules, cajole, herd and manage just about every aspect of life that occurs around here. Because of that, I am often harried, stressed and distracted. I would estimate that about 60% of my time with my family is spent with furrowed brows, hands on hips and sighs of exasperation. The energy I am putting out is what is fueling our household. My energy, more often than not, says, "Hurry up!" and "Do it right." I am responsible for these messages. I chose what I project in each given moment. How can I expect my children to understand this lesson when it has taken me 43 years to understand it?
I have mastered the life lesso where I feel blessed. I know I have a fulfilling, happy life full of love and life. I have been actively focused on understanding and receiving this message for many, many years. I felt that if I could move beyond the feeling of unworthiness that had dogged me for most of my life, I would find myself in a place of peace. As with all life lessons, I didn't know that this was only the starting place. Now that I understand my blessings, I have to project them. It isn't enough to know that my life is good, I have to project that understanding into the space that I inhabit to really make a difference. To understand something intellectually is very different than making it part of my daily living. Because I spend much of my life and energy trying to control things, my energy is often not positive. I need to let go a bit. I need to smile more. I need to live what I now know; I have a good life.
Just today I have put up a new frame in my kitchen. In it are these words: "Please take responsibility for the energy you bring into this space." It my new mantra for living. It is a reminder for me to live my life lesson. It is a reminder to teach what I know to my children. It is a reminder that what I bring to the space I inhabit creates my reality. My energy will be more positive, more calm and more loving so I may teach these lessons to my children. I am grateful I have finally both received and heard this message.
Now, you can make a difference. Take this into your heart and pass it on.
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